I had a different user and posted on here during my pregnancy about my controlling and abusive partner and despite the fantastic advice to leave him, I stayed.
I now have this perfect little baby and whilst parenting is hard, I wouldn't change a thing about her. Yet I find myself crying most days because I am so scared of this man. He's not physically abusive but if I do the slightest thing wrong he shouts and screams and calls me every nasty name he can think of. I want to leave but it's hard, much harder than when I was pregnant (although I couldn't see that at the time). I am in the process of trying to find out as much as I can about what help I might receive as I am on maternity pay at the moment and going to put a plan in place. Hopefully it doesn't take too long and I'll be able to leave.
I just want to say to anyone going through a pregnancy with an abusive partner, you're stronger than you think and you can leave if that's what you want - although no judgment at all if you don't - I get it.
Not really sure why I'm posting to be honest, suppose I just feel a bit lonely today and if anyone needs a hand hold I'm here to talk x x