Trouble with relationship

[Mummyofboysx]

I have two lovely boys - one of which is not my current partners son.
He's always wanted a large family and I feel as if I can't do that.
My youngest, his, is two. That was and awful birth. I had PPROM and he went in to fetal distress and was transverse. That meant I needed an emergency C section. He was 27 weeks at the time and spent 12 weeks in hospital and is still on oxygen at home.

I fell pregnant late last year to another boy of his. I also had a traumatic birth with him - PPROM at 24 weeks. Needed to be induced... he had a short 10 hour stay in hospital before he unfortunately passed. Two months ago we attended his funeral and we have been funny ever since.
He has had no sex drive up until this month.... understanding of that. That was no problem. The problem now is he has a massive sex drive and hes decided he now wants to try again for another. I'm on board with it but I'm scared it's going to happen yet again.

I'm feeling worthless and not a woman... which he is failing to understand.. its causing arguments when I'm upset about it happening again and he goes distant after that. Just wants sex and that's it. No talk... no cuddling... no watching TV together. He has this sense when I'm fertile and jumps me. Now, that being my only form of intimacy at the moment, I've been jumping him too... but after its arguments. We are happy around the kids but alone it feels so uncomfortable.

Do you think this will improve? Is he still grieving do you think?

I'm so sorry for your loss.

How old is your littlest?

How does he know you are fertile? Are you tracking youre cycle still?

I'm sorry for your loss, and the traumatic birth. I imagine you are still horribly affected by these events, impossible not to be. Your p sounds awful and ignorant. You really need to communicate and tell him how his behaviour is making you feel. sex shouldn't be as you describe. Have you talked about the death of your baby and your sons traumatic birth?

Couples counselling may be useful but you don't say anything that makes this relationship worth saving in my opinion

I hope you have real life friends to talk to, you've been through a lot

@FuriousVexation my littlest will be three in 4 months. He can generally tell by the way I behave. I get antsy and hyperactive when i ovulate... also i abnormally clean the house .
I am still tracking though, however.

@rumred he was super supportive when we lost him. We needed to make a few hard decisions as to how I give birth and the best possible outcome for both the baby and I. He left it up to me... i was a mess for the first three weeks and suffered from severe post natal depression. He stayed strong for us both and the kids.
Now hes just a snappy mess. Every time i talk about how hes behaving and how i feel, he spews a talk about how I'm doubting the relationship and how I'm feeling about him and says he's furious and threatens to leave... then the next day it's as if it never happened. He then randomly tells me he's worried I'm going downhill again - I had poor mental health a few years back - and how he would hate to loose me, too.
I'm a bit reluctant to seek help from a professional
The only person we have really spoken to is his brother, as he lives the closest.