The anger and rage wont leave me *Trigger Rape*

[Ineedhelptocope]

It is now three weeks since the end of my DD's rape trial and he was found not guilty.
I obsess about this man, I feel so much rage and upset over the injustice of it all. He is walking around our home town as if nothing happened.
I feel stuck.
I cant keep waking up to this Every.Fucking.Day
I feel as if I am about to blow at any given moment.
I had a previous thread on this but asked for it to be removed as I didn't want to keep seeing it.

Does anyone have any wise words/experience/ideas?'
I am desperate

I do not know how to even begin to move on.
I am seeing a counsellor but right now it doesn't seem to be helping much.
I am weary from two years of this horror.

I too where was where you are OP I know where he works where he lives I had all those feelings you have; it gets better I promise!! I poured all the hate I have for him into love for my DD I walked up hills and howled at the moon at the injustice!! Look after yourself and the quote that kept me from taking things into my own hands was before you take revenge dig two graves!!

If this was heard in a religious court then you can still pursue a criminal conviction. Go to the police.

I remember your thread . Sorry the result is not as you wished.
You and your daughter have been very brave.

I hope you're ok Ineedhelptocope please promise to look after yourself don't let him take anything else from you and your family 💐

I poured all the hate I have for him into love for my DD

She seems to be keeping me at arms length. Our r'ship seems to have changed beyond repair. She has been getting much closer to her step dad. I just feel redundant

My daughter did the same it's taken me all this time to try to rebuild a new relationship which is fragile to say the least! She will come back to you just give her space it was horrible watching my DDs destructive behaviour after she was in self destruct doing everything I abhor it was like living with a stranger I used to know and it was like she was punishing me OP!! My advice is however hard it is step back and start making you a priority keep the faith just remember you are an amazing mum even if she doesn't show it 💐

There is a letter in the Mariella Frostrup page of the Observer magazine today.
The lady who wrote in has a very similar situation to you .
Might be worth a look.