So a little back story...
I fell in love with my ex when I was 21 (I’m now 28). We was only together for 8 months but he was amazing so romantic, caring, loving and was a true old school romantic (something I look for in a man now), funny, always made me laugh and was a real family man something I also look for in a man now. But I was young and didn’t appreciate the relationship then or him so I ended things with him. We was still in contact here and there over the phone and I was still talking to him until he told me that he was dating a girl I knew from childhood! I was hurt but happy for him as I thought they would be well suited.
I met someone else who was nothing like him, not the slightest bit romantic or caring (was actually an emotionally abusive relationship) and I would always compare my ex to him which I know is wrong but I so badly wanted to feel the way he made me feel again. That relationship went on for 4 long and painful years of me waiting for him to change and being emotionally abused! I haven’t had a serious relationship since.
Last year I bumped into my ex (the good one) at a festival and we was so happy to see each it was like no time has passed at all and all those feelings from before came flooding back he said I was the love of his life and he had always thought about me and wished things would have worked out between us. He said he had broken up with his girlfriend recently (the girl I knew from childhood) and we ended up having a summer romance and I honestly hadn’t felt that happy or excited in years it was amazing but I didn’t feel like he was ready for a relationship so soon after breaking up with his long term girlfriend so I tried to cool things down a bit until I found out they were still in contact with each other so because I didn’t want to get hurt or hurt his ex I ended things again!
I found out through a friend that they ended up getting back together. Since then I haven’t stopped thinking about him and think that I shouldn’t have ended things with him again and just let things play out and see where it went. I know people will say it was just a rebound for him but it was never like that with him he really did adore me and we had a connection like I’ve never had before.
I feel like I compare every man I meet to him and every relationship to the one I had with him and I really need to stop doing this! I think about him all the time and it’s driving me crazy!
How can I stop thinking about him and comparing him to every man I meet?!