Right, I have flattened my wedding ring with my teeth...

[BitingGold]

I have calmed down now. But I cant take my ring to the jewellers to sort it. Does anyone else get THAT mad with their partners?

my dad suffered PTSD he would be fine a then just loose it i think this is why i can understand dp believe me i have bad days to and feel my dc challenge me to see how far they can push me and some days its too far i begged someone to take my children as i felt i didnt deserve them but when they smile or say i love you mummy you know you havent failed you are just a normal mum and all of us feel the same at some point....i am very alone as both my parents have passed and i dont have anyother family but you can and will get through this it will be hard i dont deny that but prove to yourself you can do hold ya head high and be proud of who you are,,
also when your dp has a bad day say to him to love you and am here dont get mad with him this will shock him and he may realise it maybe the wake up call he needs take hun

How are you doing bitinggold, did your day get any better, hope you get off toyourparents OK and things improve.

Feeling drained now. Managed to clean the house, pack most, sort out some paperwork, and now have to do VAT return for the company accounts. And fold laundry. grrr Shattered, but have survived the day. My husband came home early. And I just feel bad that my kids have seen there mum sitting like a crying shivering shouty wreck.

Hi BG - hope you'll see this while away.

Cut yourself some slack. The important thing isn't too always maintain some level of calm, its how you deal with the rage when and after it happens. Kids know that mums get cross too. God knows that MN would be very quiet indeed if we all got locked up for shouting at our kids.

Also yes its annoying that the juice was spilt but does it really matter? Its just an accident, a mess that can be cleaned up. Its just that at the moment life is so overwhelming you're seeing things as being far more of a disaster than they really are. Again, cut yourself some slack. So your home isn't Anthea-ready? So what?

I do think you need to make DH exercise, even if it means you see less of him during the week. It sounds like its an essential release for him and at least if he works the aggression off in that way you won't be stressing about it to the same extent and can give yourself some space.

Hang in there. You'll get through this, you really will. Remember - elephant sandwiches, don't try to eat the whole elephant at once.