Had plans for the whole weekend but all of them were cancelled (Friday night friend had a childcare emergency and Sat/Sun both friends were ill). Exh sent me a list of all his holidays with his dw for childcare reasons and then I decided to go for a long walk on my own and only bumped into families out for Father's Day and loved up couples holding hands.
I have a new dp but he wants to take things really slowly. I understand this but the gaps between us seeing each other are really long and I'm struggling to cope with them.
I really don't want to come across as needy and desperate - my ds has quite severe MH problems, my mum passed away and my father also has severe mental health problems (and lives abroad) and I'm having to financially support him at the moment.
I'm starting to feel that everyone is taking from me and I'm not getting much back. Everyone in life thinks I'm incredibly strong and a big coper but all I wanted this weekend was to have coffee with one friend and they all blew me out!
Hopefully period will arrive tomorrow and I'll stop feeling sorry for myself. Do I sound like I'm being ridiculous?!