Hand hold please, my legs are shaking and I can barely type. I found evidence that DH had searched for local escort agencies. I phoned him at work to confront him and he denied it completely until I was able to convince I had the evidence then he finally admitted to it. He swears it was just curiosity. He says he’s ashamed, that he wouldn’t act on it, and I can check his phone records (online) for him to prove it. My first thought having read past posts on MN was he probably has a burner...after all he was happy to lie when he thought I didn’t have proof if he’s going to show me phone records he is probably confident there is nothing on there. Come to think of it he has a work mobile so there is no way of me checking records for that.
I don’t know what to do...this is my second marriage and I feel such a failure and so guilty for my DC’s if this ends in me putting them through another divorce. I can’t face telling friends and family irl yet, I am mortified and at a loss.