Update? Help?

[mamapart]

So I put up a post yesterday about me and my bf breaking up and me practically begging him back. Anyway we sorted it out and since got back. I stayed over his last night and we went to sleep and I was still feeling kinda rough getting over all the anxiety from the couple of days before hand and couldn't sleep. I spoke to a few friends and a couple went off so I called my male friend. My bf woke up and went mental. Accusing me of cheating because I wasn't in the same room as him as I didn't wanna wake him, I Tryed explaining to him but he pushed me and then pushed me in my face and I don't want it to escalate. He's broken up with me and I can't help but blame myself for making him feel this way. Any advice?

I didn't read last thread, but I already think this sounds like a horrible relationship with no fun or genuine feelings. LTB

I read your Thread OP, I cannot believe you want this man back in your life. Seriously, for you own sake LEAVE

this man is not the answer to your problems. He is your addiction. He is like heroin to you.

Think about it. You feel you need him to relieve your anxiety and OCD, so you crave him. Then you get your fix (he comes back or visits), so you feel temporarily better. But he is toxic, just like heroin, and so then he does what he does, and you end up feeling worse than before.

You will be better off without him. I'm linking to an article that explains it better than I can:
blog.melanietoniaevans.com/what-it-means-to-be-addicted-to-a-narcissist-and-how-to-break-free-from-it/

Any advice?

Yes! Get some counselling. He is no good for you. Why would you want to be with some who accuses you of cheating and then also gets aggressive? Who upsets you and makes you anxious?

Have a bit of self respect. Get yourself sorted and do not get back with him.

Arent relationships meant to be fun? This one isnt do yourself a favour and let this one go and chalk it up to (bad) experience. Have some fun and in time meet someone else

Thank you so much for replying. The only thing is when we break up, especially now we have . My anxiety shoots through the roof. And I have severe intrusive thoughts because of my OCD when my anxiety gets worse and anyone who's suffered them surely knows how hard they are to cope with and how scary it is. I'm all alone I don't live to close to family and There's no one to stay with and as for friends, I haven't any really only over the internet m.

You can talk to us here if it helps.

Are you getting any professional help for your anxiety/OCD?

@GreenFingersWouldBeHandy
Thank you so much.
I go to counselling atm for it, it's an hour every other week but I don't think it's enough. I used to go CBT and at the time I was having problems with my now ex and it took up most of the sessions, so I do want to go back. My counsellor does her best but she doesn't specialise in OCD or anxiety really, she helps with my depression.

OP, said without patronization: you're really young. Your life is on front of you. This is chaos and makes you very unhappy, and now he is hurting you physically.

You've been clear repeatedly that you take doctors' advice seriously, so please: go to the doctor, get help for your mental health, and try to find peace and stability outside of this toxic relationship.

I'm not sure what more we can say, OP. You have posted multiple times, and got the same advice EVERY time.

This is an abusive, destructive relationship and it is ruining your, and your child's, life.

The "relationship" is a bag of wank and your anxiety is "through the roof" because of the instability of it.

You have kids FFS, give them and yourse

*yourself some peace and end it.

OP. Your anxiety is something you can eventually regain control over. Trust me I've been there its doable. He on the other hand is not something you can gain control over. You have got to get your arse out of there. He will do worse

Thank you all for the replies. It's going to be hard but I'm sure it'll work out.