Just wanted some advice and support really. I just feel so sad and don't know what to do. I feel completely lost and hurt.
My partner tonight told me he doesn't love me. We've been together 6 years. We've not been the best for a while and been arguing now and then over really petty trivial stuff. There's been odd times in the past in which he's treat me like absolute crap and I'd say he talks to me like crap on a regular basis. Anyway tonight I asked if he love me (shouldn't ask questions I don't want the answer to!) And he said no. Later on he says he doesn't know.
Our sex life is non-existent. He's rarely affectionate with me or gives me undivided time and attention. He'd prefer to sit and play a game on his phone than talk to me. Recently he hasn't even really supported or cared about big things in my life. He's very very lazy and I do the brunt of childcare, housework, organising etc.
We have a 2 year old. I think he loves her and will want to see her if we split. I work part time to balance childcare with income. He is the main income earner. We're not married. The money I do earn means I won't be entitled to any benefits but I know I won't be able to afford everything on my own! I think the reason we've stayed together so long is money, as it's tight with two incomes never mind on my own. I can't bear to lose my house I've done it all up pretty much singlehandedly as my partner refused to help and really don't think I'll find anywhere cheaper (100K house on mortgage, no houses for less than this in my area really)
Atm he does overtime which makes up his wage and if we split he will move in with his mum and he's already told me will do the basic hours meaning I'll get barely anything child maintainance wise. He knows this and knows I will struggle.
I don't understand why he's been so spiteful and cruel. I've not done anything horrible to him and he blames me for how he feels 'you annoy me' but I really don't do anything. I have asked him for examples of what I do but he couldn't give me any, 'I just do'. Despite cleaning up, doing all his washing, cooking his food, doing home improvements, looking after our child. I suggested he was depressed in the past but 'he's alright with everyone except me'. He's never there for me emotionally, tonight when he told me he didn't love me and I started to cry he couldn't care less. When I'm upset he doesn't care.
If I wanted to he'd be quite happy to live like this. Him just getting everything done for him and doing what he wants. Almost like room mates. I know I owe it to myself though to split up and hopefully have a chance a future happiness. I just feel so overwhelmed and sad.