Sweetheart, it’s ok. It will be ok because you are now safe!
Bloody huge well done for getting yourself to a safe place and out of what you know will never be a good relationship and one potentially that could end your life.
Now.. just as your abuse started slowly, so will your recovery
To begin with your brain needs safe space to start to process what you’ve been through- this is the stage you’re at or about to enter.
How long that takes is hard to say, but it will go at the speed you can sustain, and each day will see you getting stronger overall
Sure you’ll have good days and bad, but this is the BEGINNING of your journey. This I know might be a jolt for you when it’s taken so much effort and time to get yourself out, but this is the journey back to you.
We are here for you every step of the way, you’ll learn a lot about yourself, how bloody strong you are, and how much you like about yourself.
You’ll also have some things you won’t like, that you will struggle to forgive yourself for (I know I do) but beating yourself up isn’t going to help you, and helping yourself heal is the only thing you should focus on.
Your friends and family may come through for you, they may let you down, be prepared for surprises and shocks, but don’t let anyone or anything stand in your way of getting stronger and happier
It takes time. A lot of time, but it’s worth it. Don’t ever lose faith.
Mumsnet is brilliant- use us as and when you need it, there is always someone here to hear you.
(((Huge hug)))