I'm really really confused about my marriage and Im hoping you can help me get some clarity. I'm going through a stressful time and I don't know if that's distorting my judgement.
In a nutshell I am very confused. My dh treated me really badly at the beginning of our relationship. So things like I didn't get a say in financial stuff, no choice in what house I bought, being shut down angrily if I asked to talk about it. Silent treatment, banging doors, moodiness, not speaking to me - all out of the blue regularly and not knowing what I'd done to make him act like that. He hardly spoke to me. He
After I had my first child I had a 3rd degree tear and could barely walk. He wouldn't let me stay at my parents house where I'd have got support so i stayed at home where he didn't even help me. Try bending down putting the washing on 2 days post op- I had tears in my eyes, it was so painful.
The shit continued for months. I couldn't cope with new baby and this and told him I wanted to leave. He begged me not to and he'd change. Things did. We plodded along a few years and 2 babies later. Things have been much better. I've recently had a baby and the sad thing was I had to tell him not to treat me like shit after like he did with the others. Who needs to do that?!
Things have been really hard with baby but I'm getting such an overwhelming feeling of sadness of how I haven't really been that valued and supported in this relationship and I want to leave. I'm really stressed with baby as she's a bad sleeper and super clingy. I don't know if it's my stress and feeling just down thats making me feel this way. It's like the past is rearing its head for no reason. Will I ever get over it? Have you?