I’m not sure whether relationships is the right section but not sure where else to put it.
I am having a unhealthy relationships with food and drink. I comfort eat when I am sad or bored, and I am sad and bored a lot. I drink a bottle of wine or prosecco about three times a week on my own when I’m at home. It makes me fat and sluggish, but I don’t seem to be able to stop.
My ex H left me in December 2016, the very much unwanted divorce came through in December 2018. I don’t think I’m completely over it yet and I feel rather pathetic about this. Thing is, I have a great job and few but very good friends, all couples though with their own families. My own family have distanced themselves from me as they don’t believe in divorce and judge me for it - it wasn’t my idea, my husband cheated and then left. I’m financially ok, own my house, but there is an emptiness I cannot shake.
Despite seeing friends every now and again I feel alone a lot, and then I eat, sitting on the sofa watching Netflix. I don’t binge but just too much of rich savoury food. Im a good cook and actually know how to cook healthily but choose to cook with cream, cheese etc. I’m over 14 stone and a large size 16 at a height of 5.7. I feel disgusting. How can anyone ever love me when I am like this.
I push myself to do my hobbies, go to the occasional Meetup activity, go on group holidays/trips. I have just started therapy as I also had a miscarriage (in quite dramatic circumstances) at the time my ex left (his child) and I keep having bad dreams about it all.
What can I do to break the cycle? I am aware of what’s going on, still I can’t seem to make the changes. Has anyone manages to stop overeating? Any advice would be much appreciated. I can’t carry on like this!
Sorry for the long post.