Will I ever feel good enough in my life?

[OhToBeGoodEnough]

Please be kind to me although I probably don’t deserve it. To summarise, I had an affair, it was wrong and I regret it very much. My DH forgave me and I have been working so hard to put things right (it happened 2 years ago).

However, I have been left feeling so totally inadequate and I can not shake this feeling. It’s not new to me, I have felt like this for most of my life. At 7 years old I was sent away to boarding school and despite trying to be strong I feel that I am just not good enough. Some days I feel overwhelmed by this sense of worthlessness and I don’t know how to stop it. Does anyone have any advice for me? Thank you.

So sorry you feel like this. Why dont you have some counselling to help you work out why you feel this way and help you work through these feelings. You must be pretty special for your DH to forgive your affair

Thank you for your reply, I do feel very grateful that he forgave me, he could easily not have done. I find it hard to understand why I feel so worthless and I want to feel better. I will look into getting some counselling although that is not something my family would approve of! Stiff upper lip and don’t display your emotions was how I was brought up.

OP it could be worth looking into getting some counselling. I have suffered from similar feelings and would essentially always put myself to the bottom of the pile because everyone else was more "important". Its been a long road but I have turned that corner now and honestly I cannot believe what a different person I am.

There's lots of different routes you can go down aswell.

Also maybe have this conversation with your Husband as well.