Searching Sexy women on google images

[mamato3lads]

Hi all
The past two months have nearly seen my 18 year relationship crumble, weve been married a year, 3 kids, always really happy. Dh has always been hard working doesn't go out drinking with the lads or anything, always seemed to be a genuine family man who wants to spend his time at home with us. But it seems ive lived in ignorant bliss because i have discovered he has been looking up pictures of sexy women for when he has a wank! I have been so devastated by this as sometimes it was at the weekend when obviously no need as we are home together. He has tried to explain it as just a wank, a picture helps, etc etc. But ive never said no to sex and weve always had sex couple times a week no problem. Im so confused and so hurt. I can't get over it and because of that i am slowly destroying our marriage. He's tried everything to reassure me but i just cant get over the hurt
How can i get past this? I can't believe he looked up pictures of other womeb, no matter how i play it out in my mind it feels wrong
Would you be as hurt? Am i being ridiculous here... I just cant see straight anymore

Have you set that as a boundary in your relationship (that you both agreed to)? Otherwise, seems a bit weird and controlling to make a fuss about it now. I’ve searched for a lot of very suspect things on Google before! I’d be pretty upset to know my dh was tracking my internet use and questioning me about it.

I think you’re making a fuss over absolutely nothing

I don’t think you’re living in the real world OP! Seriously! I get each person’s boundaries are different but yours wouldn’t be out of place in some sexually repressed cult where ankles are outlawed.

Its not actually about you op. He's having a fantasy. You're his reality and it seems like he loves you.