Im severly depressed and anxious. I have crippling health anxiety due to a brain hemorrhage last year and its all gone down hill from there. My boyfriend has started being verbally abusive towards me. He says all the usual insults like calling me a cunt, saying no one likes me, he hates me. All usual forms of verbal abuse. Until a few weeks ago, in a heated argument he said drop down dead i hope you literally die right now. I couldnt believe it. I nearly threw up when he said it.
After what we went through last year i literally did nearly die and he said that. I still cant believe it. All its done is fuelled my depression and anxiety even more. No one knows the things hes said to me. Everyone thinks hes the perfect boyfriend. I feel so low like i never have before. The one person who was there with me through it all at the hospital, he was there when i was told about the bleed on my brain, he was there at every appointment supporting me through it all. Then he said what he said a few weeks ago. Its ruined me. Ive already rang Samaritans once and spoke to a lovely lady but not about my boyfriend just the health side of things. I just need to tell someone. I know i need to leave him and i will i just need to get myself sorted first.