Long post.. Sorry. I took decision to separate from my hubby a month ago after I found out something he had been doing that is not appropriate for a married man. Don't want to go into details.
Anyway, I can't decide what to do. I feel like I am on a roller-coaster. Staying at a friend's house whilst he is at home with children (aged 13 and 17). We agreed he would stay in house to keep things stable for him as he has a pressurised job and I don't work at moment. He's a great dad. It's complicated. He doesn't want the separation but I am trying to get over what he has done. He can be moody, like Jekyll and Hyde. One day he's nice and then he gets in mood. I've told him I want us to be on good terms whilst we sort things out. I go home during the day but leave when he gets home. Anyway, he's asked me back for dinner a few times and to go out. So I have gone, but he ends up moody and I leave as I get worried about what he might do.
I don't think I should go back, but I just want to be at home with my children. I could try and force him out, but I know he won't leave and he'd come back and cause a scene. I don't like confrontation.
Every day I make a different decision about what to do. None of the options seem great for me. I can't stay at my friend's house forever. If I rent I can only afford rent out of the area, and I don't want to leave. It eels like a mess and I just don't know what to do.