So confused 😩

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My childhood sweetheart, the boy and then man I was desperately in love with between the ages of 15 and 21 and who had an on/off (but mostly on) relationship with is getting married this month.

I’ve been a wreck recently and I can’t stop thinking about him.
I haven’t seen him properly in about 6 years, but for some reason I’m really heartbroken at this news.
I’m in a relationship currently with a 7 month old baby. But I don’t feel completely happy, maybe that’s why I’m preoccupied with the past.

I keep wondering what it would have been like if things had turned out differently, I always thought I’d end up with him, ultimately.

He recently started following me on Instagram too...so that made me think of him and our memories even more.

Please don’t judge me too harshly, I know I should be happy with my life and what I’ve got.

Life with a 7 month old baby can we really tough, and fantasising about the past a what might of been good way to escape. With my first I didn’t know what the do with myself, my time wasn’t my own and I found that so hard.

I’d focus on what in YOUR life isn’t feeling right, and what you can do about it.

Don’t judge yourself harshly either, all feelings are information. There aren’t many people who don’t need to make a few changes on their life.

In the same boat love! Although my on off ex isn't getting married, he's just getting on with his life without me. We've spoken but timing isn't right and may never be.

Honestly. Forget about him (easier said than done I know) if you're not happy in current relationship either leave or talk & spice it up. But most importantly, focus on your little one and breathe!

I have a similar thing. Just found out he's got a girlfriend, they are getting married and want to start a family asap. I have a partner and two children but l am still a wreck at the thought of him and his new life. No advice really. Just have to live with it and TRY to limit social media stalking which always makes me feel worse. X

What will be will be. You were allowed to go on and have your life. So is he
Be happy for him. Even if things aren’t perfect for you atm.

@tootruetoyou If you don't mind me asking, how would you feel if your current partner had written this about an ex of his? How would you feel if he was a wreck over an ex moving on with her life?

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OP, we as humans often look back in to our past and wonder "what if", but focus on what you do have and appreciating that more. If there's something missing that's making you feel a void, perhaps it's time to work out what that may be.

Just as you moved on with your life, your ex is entitled to do the same. Just imagine how your partner would feel if he knew you were so heartbroken over an ex like this, that may be a reminder to focus on what you do have and actually enjoy the relationship that's current and not the past.

You have a beautiful new life in front of you and a future to look forward to, you had your time with your ex and perhaps that was all you were destined to have with him. I would avoid his social media if you feel it will be something that will get to you, it's probably just healthy that way.

Maybe in the future you two can have a new relationship - a friendship.