So I have been around the block so to speak a few times.
Early 40s now, divorced with 1DS. I divorced my first husband in 2012 after 13 years. He was unsupportive when I was suffering from PND and quite cruel. He's the only person I've ever lived with.
I then had 2 either relationships, the first abusive and he stalked me and then a long distance one which didn't work out. I've had flings inbetween. So I went on a date last night with someone I had a fling with a few years ago. Texts were suggestive and I know he doesn't want commitment. We have drink and chatted and I enjoyed his company. Today I'm feeling a bit deflated. I feel like I almost have a phobia of men now, no confidence and it creates huge anxiety. I wonder if I can get past this? Generally now I don't bother with men as it would take someone a lot of patience. That's not fair on them. I'm offloading really. I'm not too fussed about date, I could stay friends and won't sleep with him as he wasn't a different things. I'm talking generally, if I'll ever be comfortable or trusting enough.