I have a vanilla partner, and I have not had my kinky side scratched for a very long time. I have been talking to a few very interesting people and one person in particular. This has lead me to a crossroads, I have a lot invested with my RL partner but it does not have everything that I want.
Thing is I have done this before and it's more a part of self destructive behaviour brought on by extreme stress and failing mental health, yet part of me wants to be free from a committed relationship for a while.
We have just moved to our own place which while its good, the change this has made in our personal lives and finances is difficult for me to deal with and I don't feel like I am being heard. There is 4 months left on the rent and I want to, almost need to move. yes the house is perfect but far too expensive for us at the moment. we probably can't afford to move either.
I'm very mixed up and don't really have anyone to talk to so, random internet people I hope you can show me some sense, because I can't find any