The death of an ex

[SlimAndAthletic]

Has anyone experienced this?
I have found out that the person I always carried a torch for died several weeks ago.

We weren't in touch (he left me) but I feel so sad to think of his little house all empty, and him being gone.

I suppose I always sort of felt that (Only in my dreams!) there was a chance that our paths might cross again, which is ridiculous, because we lived 100s of miles apart.

There hasn't been a day when I've not thought of him, so this has knocked me for six.

By the way, I'm not at all what my username says!

An ex died 4 weeks ago.
I had intended going to the funeral but was sick on the day and when I woke up the funeral was finished.
I still feel a bit weird but havent told anyone

I understand how you feel, my ex died of alcoholism in a very unpleasant way.
Allow yourself to mourn as you want. I don't think people who haven't experienced this find it difficult to understand

I think I would quite like to hear that my ex never got over me.
I seem to be ridiculously focused on myself.
I keep having thoughts that he should have called for me, I would have gone to him and given him one last cuddle.

Oh! This is who I am when I'm not 'slimandathletic'

I sobbed my heart out.

You can hate but you like bed them once so very much...

OldAndWornOut surely that would depend on the kind of relationship you had with the ex? I hate the thought that he even thought about me in the years between the divorce and his death; he didn't do much thinking about me when we were together, not in any pleasant way. I didn't want him thinking anything at all about me.

Oh yes, I don't blame you for not wanting him to even think about you, especially as he didn't when you were together.
It sounds an awful thing to put onto you.

Anyone and everyone is ours to mourn. You may have to do it discreetly, but mourn nonetheless. He was important to you once - that is all the reason needed for mourning. My condolences to you.