My ex, and father to my children, moved out last month. This was a long time brewing and I knew it was going to happen and wanted it to, it was my choice for numerous reasons. The main one being his lack of interaction with the children.
Well despite Easter, him having bank hols off work he's seen the children for a total of 5 hours in 2 weeks. They don't seem affected by it, they're happier and don't ask after him but I can't help wanting more for them.
I feel guilty. I'm feeling sorry for myself, for them, that they're left lumbered with a useless father and I can't force him to spend time with them. I'm annoyed that I've had to claim benefits, of which will take 5 weeks or so to receive the first payment. Whilst he's showing off that he's done x,y,z on his new place, purchase such and such for it whilst I'm wondering how to stretch out what I do have, to last.
I know I've made the right decision, I know it'll all work out, but what will it look like?
Sorry, I don't know what I wanted from this post