Feel so rubbish

[emzy09]

It's been 3 weeks since we broke up and that was last contact. We've been together 15 years and have 4 kids but at the moment I'm going through his mum regarding kids.
He lied etc to me and really has made me feel like such a crap woman.
I just feel so lonely and sad today thought I was doing OK until now.
I know it takes time but feel like he got the easy way out back talking at least with the ex he thought so much of even though I know he not back with her properly just yet. But he has caused this all while, I'm left feeling so low and with the kids mainly pretending to be OK. Just need some nice or helpful tips please ase :(

I'm sorry you're feeling so low OP

You are not a crap woman. He is a crap man. You deserve better than this.

It sounds like you're being sensible putting contact through his mum. Avoids you having to speak to the poisonous bastard for now.

How are the kids? Have they noticed he's not around?

He worked nights etc but they know he is at his mums as that's where they see him. I think as it's Bank Holiday I would normally have everyone round etc but cause of this I can't. I'm closer with his family after 15 years and 4 kids very hard to just forget and split up in worse way possible. No contact as I say not seen or spoke to him since he left just over 3 weeks, just can't help but be resentful by even tho I know he hasn't just forgotten about me etc he will wants his ex after a short thing with them. I know this is all for the best but as I'm the one really hurt can't help but feel s#@t I just want to feel better. I'm just numb xx

An ex is an ex for a reason he won’t be any happier going back to her.

Regardless that doesn’t help you as being the one left behind us always tougher to bounce back from .... you are grieving at the moment and you will need to allow yourself time for that.

Do you have friends that can rally round a little? Give you someone to message to feel
Less alone?

Mumsnet is great to of course, I wish I could take your pain away x

I've got friends but like me got kids so can't just come round. I can message. I know it's just a down day and they are still bmto be expected. I wish the bastard happiness but not with that bitch as she wrecked my home with pleasure but he is ultimately to blame and I know that. Just so angry and that I'm like ft feeling this way. He may feel bad but not nothing like this as people shouldn't treat people like this. I've got counselling booked but still 2 weeks away. Keep trying to distract myself but then my mind starts thinking. I know whats going on with them as such and that's what the bastards wanted. I just need to pick myself. Up. And have been for. Last few days properly but now feel crap and low. Sorry to vent xx