I have been on my own for 18 months now after a 25 year relationship / marriage. It had been a sham for many years and I finally had the courage to leave in October 2017. I hadn't loved him for a long time.
I have now met a fabulous man who tells me how much he loves me. We are taking things slowly and have not met each other's families or anything yet although we are planning to do so. We are also planning a holiday in the summer and that at some point we will live together and he says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. He is wonderful and caring and does so many lovely and caring small things. The problem is I can't believe he is with me and constantly expect it to be over. I don't feel that I am good enough for him... pretty enough...slim enough...intelligent enough...Nice enough..etc. and I am constantly scared that he will go off me. He has done nothing to warrant this but I just can't help thinking it isn't going to last and he will find someone better than me. I am trying to keep these feelings under control but sometimes they are just overwhelming and I think about finishing things so he doesn't have to.
What's wrong with me and how can i stop feeling like this? Am worried I am going to sabotage things.