Met my best friend end of 2017, long distance online friendship. Started dating mid 2018, at their insistance and begging against my reluctance, got serious, talked of marriage, moving to live here etc, fell completely in love.
Sunday night totally out of the blue he ends it, claiming distance and money was the issue. Just admitted his feelings changed and only loves me as a friend now. I'm totally broken.
I'm 29, heavily disabled by MH issues, no real life friends, no other online friends either, no family bar dad and sister. This was the first real, non abusive relationship i've ever had. I pretty much pinned all my hopes and dreams on this future and now i am just empty.
Panic attacks, can't eat, can't sleep, sick, can't stop crying, feeling really suicidal that it's too late for me to ever meet anyone and have a reason to live. Assuming i ever even get over this guy as i really don't feel like i could.
I'm pretty much housebound, have no idea how or where to meet people as friends or potential future partner.
I guess what i'm really looking for is reassurance that i won't always feel like this, that the dispair and wanting to give up and die will end, that someone has been through complete heartbreak and come out the other side and gone on to be happy, as right now, i feel totally hopeless with no idea where to turn.