We've all had pasts, I know it makes us who we are today, but I can't get past the fact that my boyfriend of eight years had one. Lovers, a child, a life I wasn't part of, did he love them more, does he have secret regrets, does he imagine how life could of been if it had worked out with others, does he wish it had of done?
Of course I could ask and ask but he's never tell me if he did obviously.
Even after all this time of being with him and truly knowing this man loves me I still worry and wonder.
But how have you if you've ever felt like this got past it and stopped thinking these thoughts. It kind of haunts me and I'm sure I could give so much more to the relationship if I just found a way of letting it go. Seems so deep rooted in me though I don't think it will ever stop.