Need Strength to Leave

[Smilemumof2]

I'm still a newbie on here, looking for advice really.
My husband have been together 9 married for 2, got to kids, 7 & 4.
When my daughter was born he was emotionally abusive, constantly criticizing me made me feel worthless, got angry around the kids and I always tried diffusing situations , walking on eggshells constantly.
Last year I hit rock bottom said I was leaving he convinced me to stay tried to leave again he persuaded me he'd changed.
He has definitely been nicer
But I can't forget what he did.
He once called my children c**ts to their faces.
Anyway a year on I want him to leave, every day I think I'll do it I'll do it but never do
It's so frustrating I think I'm scared, possibly not confident in my own decision making and feel guilty.
How do you find the strength to have the conversation??
Please help
X






Ooo it is tough OP there’s no question about that. It took me years to leave my ex. I think what changed it for me was looking at depth psychology & realising I had an attachment to the feeling of being trapped. Once I realised why I wasn’t ending it, I was able to finally end it (if that makes any sense at all)

@Bubblegumgal
I understand what your saying, the attachment to feeling trapped sounds familiar. Was your ex EB? How did he take it?
Thanks for replying x

Hi OP, it took me years to end things with my ex too. He wasn't quite as bad as yours but he was a nightmare to live with. I think you just 'know' when you reach that point of no return. Sometimes it can be something nasty he does or just a very small thing that triggers something in you.
Don't be too hard on yourself. You will get to that place. Hopefully sooner rather than later.