What do I do with all the love I have for my ex? Story goes went on a date with “S” but I wasn’t over my ex so told him straight that I wasn’t in the right place. I took time out to sort my head out and be happy. I’m in a good place with work, kids, friends and social life. S tried to get back in touch but I wasn’t ready.
Last year I bumped into S and we started a friend with benefits thing. Suited us both. I caught feels and told him. He wasn’t in same place so we stopped. Turns out he was on and off with a girl but that’s not my business and I moved on.
S then came back and said he split with girl and had time to get over it and now Is in a place to try a relationship. He was wary of me though as I rejected him in the past and hurt him. He wasn’t going to let me do it again. He was scared I would change my mind again.
Anyhoo we went for it and it was fab. Everything clicked and I totally fell for him. After being on my own for so long it was great being looked after and having the best fun and have someone to share things with. He practically moved in the times my kids were at their dads.
He was very insecure and when he had a couple of whiskeys he needed reassured that I was happy and loved him. He loved me too and was happy.
One night I text him asking how he was. I only got a reply of sleeping. I thought that’s rude but I left him to it. He text the next morning asking how I was and I replied fine but bit pissed off at your one word text. Well that was enough for him to not reply. For days. I asked what was wrong to be told since I was pissed off what’s the point in texting. I said I can be pissed off but still love you. Nothing for days. I text but he ignored me. I phoned him and he actually answered and said he was pissed off at me not replying to his sleeping text and having a strop about it. Said he would text me later as he was at work. He didn’t. I got drunk at girls weekend and text him I missed him. He replied saying he’d text me later. He didn’t.
I sent my own last text for closure telling him I can’t believe we are over due to a silly arguement. Normal folk can argue and move on plus more on what I thought of his behaviour. No reply
So here I am. In a fog. Heartbroken. Trying to unlove him and get that horrible feeling out my tum. Don’t know why his reaction was so extreme. Maybe he met someone else? Whatever reason he could have said. How do I trust anyone? I’m back to being on my own again which I’ll be fine but bloody hell its lonely. I got a taste of being happy for first time in years and it’s gone. There are reminders of him everywhere. Why is he not missing me. Don’t really want to get out of bed tbh
Any advice or insight appreciated