Is this a bad sign?

[Lovehearts2213]

I've been with DH for almost six years and we have DC 18 months. We have a nice relationship and do a lot as a family and together.
I left my job last year and returned to studying which can sometimes mean I spend a lot of time on my own.
In the last few months I have been thinking more and more about an ex. So not to drip feed I got married very young to ex he was in the military and he was away a lot. When he left he was old before his time and we ended up growing apart (he was seven years older than me) . After a lot of not getting on we split up,he moved on very quickly with an old school friend of his (luckily we both moved back to original hometowns so I never had to see this) and had a child and we have never been in contact since our divorce was finalised 7 years ago
Recently I have been full of what ifs and the unsettling feeling that if I had been older when we met it would if worked out.
I'm not sure why I feel this way ,DH is great and would be so upset to know I feel this way.
I'm not sure if it's because I spend time on my own a lot so am just dwelling? Is this a bad sign for the future with my current DH?

Depends how you handle it from now on. Will you continue to dwell or will you let it go with love and get back on with your marriage?

In my experience, going back never works. You may be different now, but so will he be.

It's ok to think about the what ifs and day dream about the past, but it is another to act on it. You split with the ex for a reason and I agree with the PP, going back rarely works. I always think of people like Richard Burton and Elizabeth Taylor or Pat and Frank Butcher...like bloody boomerangs, but it never worked. It sounds like you are feeling a bit bored and it may not be anything to do with your current relationship. It would be folly to do anything like getting in touch with the ex and risk what you have already. Put it to the back of your mind and make yourself busy with other things.

No I would never act on it,hopefully it is just boredom. Just such a strange feeling .

the unsettling feeling that if I had been older when we met it would if worked out
But you're not older so it's irrelevant surely!!????
It's all a bit odd.
Do you think some therapy would help you?

I'm hoping once I am back working it will switch back off if I'm honest. There are no deep rooted underlying issues which is why I'm so confused.