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I have to get this off my chest **TRIGGER WARNING** (Titled edited by MNHQ)

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FirstConfession · 31/03/2019 17:34

I'm fairly tipsy or I'd never have the courage to post this. If I've got the courage, I hope to update this when I'm sober but I just have to "get it out" now or I think I never will.

I think I was abused as a child by my father. Just typing that made me feel sick because I really do love him but yeah. He never hurt me and he never touched me but something he did, on reflection, feels massively inappropriate

OP posts:
Chocolateisfab · 31/03/2019 17:35

Sorry you are dealing with this op. In the immediate, can you be sure he has no access to other dc?
Flowers

zoellafortitude · 31/03/2019 17:35

Sorry to hear this, OP Flowers

Whatever it is, it has obviously been playing on your mind all these years. I hope you find the courage to discuss and get help either here or IRL.

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FirstConfession · 31/03/2019 17:36

chocolateisfab

Absolutely none.

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littlecabbage · 31/03/2019 17:39

I'm sorry to hear this OP. Well done - you have taken the first step towards getting help and support. I'm sure other posters here will be able to advise you where to seek help. Flowers

something2say · 31/03/2019 20:30

Ah I'm sorry to hear this...

Is it something your turning over a lot in your mind? If you delete the thread, it won't go away....is there anyone professional you could talk to??

something2say · 31/03/2019 20:31

You're. God sorry

acornstew · 31/03/2019 22:18

Hi OP - are you still checking this? Sounds a bit similar to what I’ve gone through recently, looking back on my childhood. Want to talk?

littlecabbage · 03/04/2019 16:54

OP, you may find it helpful to watch This Morning from today, which had a feature about child abuse with lots of advice about where to find support. Should be available on itv player within a couple of days. Hope you doing okay.

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FirstConfession · 03/04/2019 22:32

I'm not ready to go into details yet but I wanted to say thank you to everyone who gave advice.

I don't think this comes under child abuse but I was introduced to porn at a young age by my father. Initially page 3 in the sun. He didn't show it to me but I saw it and he explained. Immediately I was interested and that was probably the start of my addiction to pornography.

I discovered a soft porn movie "underneath" another movie that I'd recorded at the age of 8 or 9. Not my dad's fault by any means but I remember watching it every day for months. I'm especially ashamed to have watched it while getting ready for my grandads funeral.

I was about 13 or 14 when I "discovered" my dad was into BDSM. I say discovered but he explained it to me and various whips and floggers were displayed in my parents room.

I've got more to say but I dont feel ready to go into it today. Again, this isnt something I hate my dad for, on the contrary, I love him very much, but looking back it seems wildly inappropriate and it's something I've never forgotten.

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littlecabbage · 04/04/2019 07:13

I'm fairly sure that would be classed as child abuse. Sorry that this happened to you.

littlecabbage · 04/04/2019 07:19

This may be useful to read?

www.nspcc.org.uk/preventing-abuse/keeping-children-safe/online-porn/

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