Feeling alone

[reeree1805]

Hi all

Im feeling quite alone lately. I have 2 amazing children 12 and 10 and a dear partner .
The thing is,is me and my partner had a terrible row we dont normally over something silly (well it wasnt at the time) . As we now arent speaking i feel i have noone to talk to i have a few close friends but i dont normally go to them with problems as they have their busy lives. My mum n dad passed away 10 yrs ago and im an only child so yeah not many people to talk to . I ended up crying to myself .

I dont know what im after writing on here and i dont normally write . I do always wonder if anyone is in the same position as me sometimes .

Although me and my partner will talk again soon i still cant shake the feeling of what if im alone when im older n my children move on.
I dread being alone . Thanks for reading xx

Hiya

Sorry to hear your upset, I’m here if you want to talk. What was the argument about?

My son has gone away with school and i was working so couldnt see him in the morning before he left . When i got home from work i noticed he had left his packed lunch for the trip there. I was so upset as he didnt have any food or drink with him n i shouted at my partner as i feel he should of reminded him to take it. Of course he said it was his own fault . But i was just so upset the thought of him having no good or drink until tea time . Hes 12 n my partner was meant to be the adult x

Well its not a life or death issue and I'm sure the other children on the trip or the teachers will be able to sort him out a snack and a drink.
I think your never totally on your own, you have yourself .Also its better being on your own than with unsupportive people. Theres always new people you can meet at whatever age. My grandma joined a luncheon club at 86 and made new friends and she hadn't been out of the house for about 20 years!.

Make more time for your friends. They are a blessing. Make the effort
I'm an only child orphan too, and childless to boot. Friends keep me alive, don't underestimate how important they are

Is he away just for the day? I am sure his friends and teacher will sort him with something to eat and drink. They will usually share something from their lunches in my experience when my kids forget there’s at home and I can’t get there.

I can see that you were upset over not seeing him off. It seems you were maybe overtly upset over that by yelling at your partner. I get that. If you were there it could have just as easily been forgotten in the rush of getting bags, kisses and out the door on time. Things get missed all of the time.

I hate to say it, you may owe an apology to your partner over yelling at him over it. It was a mistake, your son is 12 and also responsible for his own lunch. It’s not worth a huge row over IMO.

Are there other things going on? You seem very melancholy. Are you overall happy in life? Or is this just a symptom of being unhappy?

Hes away until monday. Its just how im feeling at the mo . Tbh im always there for everyone friends included yet noone seems to be there for me