What will happen if I can't beat this depression

[baby20082015]

I don't know what to even say.
What the fuck will happen is this just it now? Will it always be like this?
And why can't I be normal and beat this even with medication and support?
I don't know what to do.

Didn't want to read and not reply. Hi OP. You won't always feel this way. You sound very anxious. Depression and anxiety are horrid and can be very debilitating.
It's great you're getting support. Are you doing anything for yourself?.has something in particular happened to trigger it. Keep sharing

Have you talked to your GP lately? How long have you been on your current medication? It may be time to try a new one or add one that will amplify your current one. Or maybe bump up your current one if it’s not helping.

Depression and anxiety are really hard. They can be all consuming when you are in the middle of it.

I can say, living with both myself life does go on. It’s like a rollercoaster. It has its ups and downs. It’s good points and bad points. Some more controlled times and then something will trigger and then bad times. Counselling with CBT candy really help. The right medication really helps. Living life helps and just saying f’ it and doing what you want helps as well. As in, my friends are going out, I really don’t feel like it, f’ it, I am going! Make yourself go. Usually you have an ok time. This helps boost your mood for next time:)

Don’t know if this is possible but I’ve got a 13 and 3yr old,I’m struggling at the moment realising I never should of got married in the first place I’m hard work I struggle with trust and am near positive I’ve ended up pushing my wife is having some sort of affair more emotional and odd physical I think , I was willing to try get to the root of the problems but she has started playing games either because she isn’t invested in the marriage any more or she is but has found herself in a whole, who knows we’ve known each or her since near babies if she has moved on as we been together since teenagers she’s still the mother of our kids and I want her to strive, seems like I stole your thread what I was trying to say is I’ve just booked a flight and am going to take two weeks to get happy I know this is selfish but if I don’t im not sure I’ll be around got myself in a funk and normally it’s only me that can get me out so I’m going to try, my partner has lots of family and I got people who can help out, good lucj

@Youknowme1 you should start your own thread to get advice as well.

I wish I could go away, even for a weekend right now! Would be heavenly!

Thank you for replying and although I do not wish these feelings on anyone else I am glad I'm not the only one.

I have been to GP and on 40 mg now of citalopram....

I'm just concerned it doesn't seem to make me better.

This all began 18 months ago after the birth of my 3rd baby, I have never been the same since and I get so angry at myself at why I cannot just seem to be happy when on paper I have so many reasons to be.

coffeechoc sorry forgot to add that you are correct I have been diagnosed with a quite severe anxiety disorder and that's what the citalopram is for.... But I cannot work out if I am depressed also?

Have you asked your gp about CBt in conjunction with the meds?

So, you have PNA, or similar, with three kids to deal with, one very one that is a huge responsibility. Do you ever get down time? How is your partner with you?

Do you work as well?