Hi, so I'll try and keep this as short as I can...
every now and then I have a paranoid dream that my partner of 5 years is cheating (last night I dreamt he had been having an affair with someone for the past 5 months) when I wake up it feels so real and I'm in a crappy mood all day from it 
Anyways... last week we was out at the casino... a young blonde thing with her stomach and boobs out came and sat on the blackjack table, he was chatting to her saying well done because she kept winning. I'm not really bothered he was talking to her, was sat next to him, I think I'm more bothered that he probably did fancy her... I was that skinny and young once :-(
Later on we was walking to the bar for a drink and I saw him checking himself out in the mirror.... made me snigger if I'm honest lol.
Then I was sat opposite him and I saw him look behind me and smiled... a really cheeky, cute, possibly flirty smile if there's even such a thing and I just knew instantly she must of been at the bar. And sure enough she was.
I feel really hurt I know it sounds pathetic but I feel like he hasn't looked at me like that in about 3 years :-(
He never snogs me anymore lol only kisses me... like it's not passionate anymore. Is that just what happens after 5 years?
He always tells me he loves me, and I honestly don't think he would even have the time, chance or energy to cheat... he works 7 days a week!
We have both put a lot of weight on since meeting, I'm now a size 12, and 10stone I'm 5ft 2 so I'm quite a chunky monkey now, when we met I was a size 8 and 8 stone :-(
Doesn't he fancy me anymore? Is that why he doesn't passionately kiss me?
We do still have lots of sex... but it's more like wham bam thank you ma'am lol
Sorry for the essay... any advice very welcome!