I broke up with my girlfriend because of her continuous spinning resulting from my selfish actions with other women. After a bad divorce I felt like I was falling through life with no safety net and treated her very badly and I hurt her deeply. She has since had my baby and I have found it difficult watching my family from afar. I am amazed by how soft and melty she has become since becoming a mom. I’ve taken some time out to assess what I want out of life and how I really feel and I know that I love her deeply, pure unselfish love. She is wicked smart, fiercely determined, beautiful, funny, courageous and kind. The other woman is nothing to me now and I plan to prove this by getting an injunction. I’ve finally found my honor and I no longer have a romanticized vision of what life should be. I have made some foolish choices and have been that man that has stayed behind with the machine gun too many times to recall. I thought that peace and distance was the sustainable way forward for me but I miss her and just want her back. I want the family we always talked of. I have articulated a vision over and over again but just haven’t been able to get it over the finish line but I have changed and want one final chance to prove I’m the man she wants. I’m her safety. I want to be a father to our baby. She has agreed to me having access but on a supervised basis only so I was hoping she would be the supervisor and that would be a good way of us to spend some time together. How do I prove to her that I can make her feel happy, secure and fulfilled? She has shown me such vulnerability over the last few weeks and I’ve fallen in love with her all over again and I’m certain this can work. But how do you prove trust? I’ve offered to give her every one of my passwords and have access to my life but is this enough? What more can I do? I want a normal relationship capital “R” with her and need to find a way back. I think we’ve both evolved as people and I am back on my feet in a way that I wasn’t before and I know that I am fully capable of creating loyalty, safety and stability but it’s just convincing her. She told me she doesn’t love me anymore but she’s full of beans, I see it in her eyes and I know that more than anything she wants a family with me. So how do I show her I’m all in because my words, flowers and morning shower coffee aren’t cutting the mustard?
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