I've posted a few times on here about feeling so not ready for a relationship and if I'm honest I think it's time to think differently to the "ideal" I've always had in my head. Which is something I'm still processing.
I recently became very close to a man who lives nearby, his company is so easy to be in, we get along amazingly, he's hot and he makes me laugh and I think it's quite safe to say I'm very fond of him.
But then that's where I start to get scared. Because whenever I'm not with him I think about him, we could have seen each other 5 minutes ago and I miss him.
Nothing has happened between us bar spending a lot of time with each other but I know I can't let someone in right now. And I'd prefer to have this person in my life forever even if it was just a best friend. Rather than date and have fun and then let it fizzle out.
So I half explained this as I think he feels the same and he told me because he has feelings for me he thinks it's best we stay away from each other.
Anyway I'm just rambling, I know it's the right thing to do. But the selfish part of me wants to go knock on his door and fall into his arms and tell him I miss him and I'm confused 😔
Looking for reassurance I've done the right thing and it's ok to feel this way.