Can I just start by saying this is not a self-pitying post.
On paper I think I'm exactly what someone wouldn't want in a relationship. I have a long-term chronic condition which means I can't work at the moment. Because of this condition I can't go out a do 'fun' things a lot of the time. I live back at home with parents because of needing help. I don't have friends, they all disappeared since I became ill.
So in light of all that I'm struggling to see why someone would be interested in me? First date set for a couple of weeks time. Met him through a group I go to so he knows me 'in person' so to speak. Have known him about a year. He knows everything I've written above.
I keep thinking of pulling out of the date. I feel like I'm being selfish expecting him to put up with all of that (and yes I know it's only a first date and it might go no further than that, but what if it did?). I keep thinking he should be with someone who can give him a lot more than I can and who can be everything someone would want in a partner. I've stayed single for years because of all the worries about this and now I've inadvertently met someone I keep second guessing myself.