I made a mistake

[Anonymousmummi]

I've been married for 6 years and been with my husband for 13 years, we have a 2 year old and I'm pregnant. Last year I wasn't myself, I was drinking more. I did something that I hugely regret, I kissed a friend in our group. It started with this guy paying me compliments and saying how nice i look and he said he's always liked me. It was always when we had had a drink, it went too far one day when we kissed and nothing has happened since. He has a fiance and a child also- this happened last August. Then on my works Xmas do I ended up kissing a girl I work with (I am not attracted to girls) I told my husband about this straight away but he still doesn't know about kissing our friend. Now I feel time has gone on and ive made it worse by not telling him straight away.
I love him so much and we have a baby on the way, I wasn't the same person last year as I am now and I feel so guilty.
Please don't reply with abusive messages, I already hate myself so much, I just don't know what to do.

I'd do nothing at all except evaluate in your own head why you did it to try to make sure it won't happen again. And avoid being around the friend you kissed, certainly not alone with him.
Telling your DH isn't going to achieve much. Better just to focus on your marriage and family and put mistakes behind you.

Stop beating yourself up. It was a kiss. Although I don't condone it you need to put it behind you, think to yourself how you would feel if your dh did it to you. I think your biggest problem is the alcohol.

Forget it and move on!

I too think you’re problems is with alcohol. If you can’t control yourself stop drinking, it’s really not fair on your H or your dc, you’re putting everything at risk for the sake of a drink.

Don’t tell him. It was just a drunken kiss - it’s no biggie - just forget about it.

I do agree that the alcohol is the biggest problem, luckily I'm pregnant so I'm not drinking and I feel so muxh better as a person for it. I'm gonna have 2 kids soon and I've definitely evaluated whats important and it's my kids and family, I don't want them seeing me drunk and I definitely don't want the hangover. I keep hearing songs about cheating and I hate that person last year, I can't believe that was me. I've always seen a future growing old with husband and can't understand why I would jeapordise things.