Ex left me over Xmas, he is already with a new women. I still have his dirty boxers in my wash basket!! Anyway I've gone back to work after mat leave, lined up a new full time job to start in September as he is useless and I can't rely on him. I get up every day, put my make up on, get dressed, slap on a smile and carry on....but inside I feel so broken. I'm constantly thinking about him. When will the pain go away? It's exhausting and I don't know how long I can continue to fake it xx