I should feel more than this - elated maybe?

[greenberet]

But I don’t - i have just completed on a house and I’m in bed completely drained - this is the house over 200 miles away from where I am now - where my kids are - I nearly pulled out on Tuesday would have lost deposit - but thought too unfair on sellers - right now I don’t know who I am or what I’m doing - this is the start of it all unravelling - it should be a positive time but I’m six months adrift - kids have already told me they want it to look like the family home just a mini version! KIds are revising for a levels looking at unis - I’m a fucking mess right now - no use to anyone - I’ve got to tell the school I can’t afford last terms school fees and they need to contact DS father - I’m thinking of defaulting onpayments of stuff no longer relevant - my DB has said just get a Job - if it was that easy why am I in bed why do I feel like shite - because what I feel I am being forced to do is all down to injustice - I bloody wish I didn’t feel this way - the alternative is to feel nothing _ dead. I spoke to the police yesterday

Re my solicitors - they can’t help me - just going round and round in circles and when people feel like not answering questions - they just stop, refuse, ignore you - because they can - hide behind professional bureacracy - so how do you get them to notice - I can see no other way other than throwing shit at them! And then what happens you get accused of being a shitthrower - this is abuse - doesn’t just happen at home behind closed doors - it’s rampant everywhere because when someone is in the wrong they seem incapable of saying “I’m sorry I got that wrong” - they would rather grind you down to a bit of shit On their shoe - so you have to throw this shit back at them!

I really dont get what you are trying to tell..

Hi, you sound a bit like I feel, everything feels crap and overwhelming, nobody cares. Sitting with cat on my lap eating cheese (both of us) and mumsnetting to take my mind off everything...

Do you want to talk about it? Even if you don’t I replied just to say, you’re not alone.

no use to anyone that isn’t true. Your kids need you even if you feel useless xx

Are you moving to be closer to your children? I'm a bit confused.

I totally get what you are saying. It may not to others but I do. I am guessing here but it does sound to me like you are pinned up with anxiety over having to uproot to a new place and it’s not what you want? You want to pull out but the choice is not there. Please try and perhaps explain why you feel so powerless. There are brilliant people on here who have helped me endless of times and I know some can relate and want to advice or just acknowledge that you are not alone.

Hi greenberet.

what were your initial reasons for choosing this house? can you talk us through them?

what are you worried about now, about having bought the house, having now put it into motion?

And, why did you call the police - what was that about?

Sorry things feel rubbish atm.

Elaborate, if you want to OP. People are happy to listen and advise on here.

Hi thanks for replying - there is a long back story to my situation extremely acrimonious divorce - got manipulated and shafted by x - got shafted by 1st lot of solicitors representing me - lost family home as a result - got shafted by 2nd barrister who didn’t turn up to court so ended up LIP. Judge couldn’t give a shit just wanted case over & done with - much easier to listen to x’s lies presented by barrister than my emotionally distraught truth - I got shafted!

I’ve been trying to fight through the right channels - I said yonks ago the legal profession are crooks in suits - not all - just most of whom I’ve dealt with -

I’m moving away from my kids - I have been renting the former family home after my x manipulated the sale but I’m running out of money - I can’t afford to buy here - Oxfordshire - I can’t rely on being employable ( long term depression under MH team) to take on mortgage - so I’ve had to maximise settlement and move where I can afford - as it is I’ve been paying DS school fees as x refused to despite Ds being suicidal. My X is very well respected in his industry - he is a cunt in RL!

I’ve been telling him for months this is what is going to happen he ignores me - he could easily pay one measly term of Ds school fees which means I could keep the home on til after kids finish a levels - otherwise they have to live with him - why is it 2 adults cannot have a conversation even by email for him to say yes kids can live with me - I know the answer because he’s a cunt!

Out to destroy me emotionally & financially - I’ve kept going for the kids but it’s breaking me - I am having not good thoughts too often - I’m under my Gp

canhear you’ve made me blub - powerless yes! Totally fucking powerless - he would have me on the streets - it’s a nice house and I can see a future sometimes - but leaving my kids is not something I should have to do - they should be able to go off to uni get on with their life and then I’ll sort mine - but I can’t make this happen and I worry if I’m not around how it will impact on them!

I need somewhere to live from August - the kids need somewhere to come back to - a 1 bed flat wouldn’t work!

I called the police because I am so fucked off of getting fobbed of by everyone - my complaint on solicitors is with LO - their response is bloody laughable - they contradict themselves and I have to read it 3 times to make sure I’m not going mad - but where do you go - I can’t afford to pay out anymore - I need someone legal that gets this that sees people are getting ripped off and can help me - I have all the email proof - the LO just leave bits out to justify their answer. My head is all over the place - sorry if I’m not making sense

I have just had enough

I’ve got a barrister lying about a client care letter she claims she sent me but didn’t and two clerks of her chambers lying to cover her up - where do I go with this

I’ve got a surveyor lying about discussions that he says took place on the sale of my home but didn’t

But most of all my solicitor is a lying manipulative woman who claimed she understood what I was dealing with - all she could see was £££!

Sorry I am just feeling fucked off that I feel fucked off and can’t see this as a happy day!

I am sorry you are going through this.
Was the call to the police for your mental health, or about your ex, or the solicitor? I'm a bit confused, sorry

Contact the law society ask you get your file taxed.