Some of you will recognise the story - I was seeing a guy for a few months before I discovered he had depression/anxiety. The cliffnotes version is it was causing us problems; and one drink-fuelled night I said I thought it would be best to end it because I was sick of his inconsistency and he 'wasn't sure; about long distance which made me think he didn't feel as strongly. He agreed we'd be better as friends anyway as he is supposedly moving abroad in one month.
But that was 3 months ago and I'm starting to think we made a mistake. I thought maybe it was a fling/I wouldn't hear from him again but since the break up he's been in consistent contact & we see each other every week. I'm not sure why but in the last couple of weeks something has changed...
When spending time in a group, I'd catch him looking at me all the time & we don't leave the others side. Then last night, we went to support a friend at an event at the bar we went to for our first date. On that date we shut the bar down and lo and behold...we shut the bar down again last night. He was being touchy feely & kept looking down at my lips/checking me out (again this is more recent). When we said goodbye, we held onto each other for AGES and eventually settled on a small cheek kiss, although we were about an inch from each other's face. Almost kiss.
I believe its right for him to take the job opportunity abroad but I also wonder if we were premature in deciding not to leave ourselves open to long distance and he has clearly stated he wants to visit me and vice versa. Last night he tried to convince me to relocate when he goes & also said he was considering postponing the move when I said 'please don't go!'.
So...we're going to meet again before he leaves. We said we'd be 'friends' but the chemistry has obviously reached through the roof levels again. Should I kiss him or do I restrain myself and leave the departure at a nice hug?