Self esteem very low - any advice?

[Suki00000]

So I have been in a relationship since I was 14 and now I am 37, I had first Valentine's day without anyone treating me.
People say single life is fun but there is absolutely no fun so far for me.

Long story short, I broke up with my 2 husbands in the past for reasons and I shouldn't regret it.
1st one is whom I had known since I was 18 and had a child together- we are still best friends but just lost sexual chemistry after 15 years being together and had gone though international relocation/job change etc.
2nd one was just not the person who I hoped he would be. I must have known from the beginning.

Now, my self esteem is very low. They had both moved on and it's not that I want to get back with them at all. But I feel I am a failure.
I feel I am rejected when both cases I was the one who filed divorce.
I feel if I had treated them better or was more compassionate of their situation, it could have been amazing and I am at fault.

I have a daughter and I also wonder given I am having such a low self esteem at the moment, for her emotional intelligence development, what I can do for her. She is nearly 8.

Please give me some insights.

You're still young you know...you've had two marriages which didn't work and that's nothing to feel bad about, it's just the way it worked out.

At 37 you still have time to COMPLETELY reinvent yourself and yes, one day maybe meet someone else.

Do you work? Enjoy your job?

Firstly stop focussing on past relationships , its a total waste of time, (or future ones, )you have never lived alone and found out who you are, and what you are capable of...
Start looking at your job, do you have one? what would you like to do if you had no restrictions ?
Spend some time really thinking about who you want to be at 40/45/55 etc, not who you want to be with, but who YOU would love to be in your dreams, ie a nurse/engineer/running a creative business...talk to people, look up training options, degree courses, find what interests you and find a way to start...
You have a lovely daughter so plan some exciting trips, go to Paris on Eurostar or scotland by train, show her some great places...and create lots of memories. Make a bucket list together.
Plan the life you want with some challenges for yourself, that is what builds self esteem, do lots with your daughter, challege each other!
8 is a great age, talk about everything, debate lots of subjects with her.
Avoid relationships and learn to be the best of You instead.......have fun

Ah Suki, the first was a 15 year year relationship where young love didn't survive life's pressures and that happens a lot. The second was just a reaction to the first scenario. There is someone special out there for everyone, no matter how negatively people look at it. There always is, and being down on yourself is ridiculous. Every single person has something that someone else is looking for. 37 is still young, plenty of time. You were brave, you filed, you probably carried them that is the case, look for someone different to your past experiences. Not great at giving advice, hopefully someone will give you better but believe in yourself because you sound decisive, incisive and strong.