Hi Guys and Girls,
Weekend just gone my Partner of nearly 2 years (i think. not one to remember dates, don't read anything into that. its normal for me, ask my friend.) asked me if i would move in with her.
Her son is talking of moving out. and this week he is away for 5 nights... Darling Girlfriend is the emotional sort much like myself. is obviously feeling it....
And her daughter is talking of moving out in a few years as she has met a really nice bloke.
I just came back from holiday Thursday night. feeling good about my relationship, feeling a bit more grown up i went to the other side of the world on my own, rented a car... it was fun, i missed my darling.
My career is going well, I am trying to saving up some money for a property.
My Mum and Dad are in there 60's still in Council House, never bought don't have much money to speak of. I feel responsible for my parents. because what are they going to do when the money runs out?
WTF are they gonna do. i feel really angry with my parents for not planing ahead, im fucking furious.
and now dad is threatening to move to the isle of wight (With what money i don't know, he seems to think hes going to take the caravan and bum about the island like a fucking p.....), to take mum away from her 4 sons and multiple gran-children (my brothers, not mine i wont have them.)
i don't suppose i have never really got along with my father.. i suppose i am like him in many ways. but completely different in other, especially recently since i got my new job.
I moved out once before when i was 19 i thought i was being all grown up. moving in with an older woman, but it didn't work out. so i am worried about making the same mistake again.
When i was about 17, i tried to help an old man at the bus stop. he was struggling to read the bus timetable.
I Said "where do you want to get to bud?"
"Tea City"
Pointing at the Tea City TimeTable. i said "oh the next bus is at 10 minutes past.
at 3 minutes past the bus for Coffee Town pulls up, we are at the bus terminal, so the buses are always on time. they don't leave early that would be mental.... right the bus schedule would be fucked.
This silly prick gets on the bus says "Tea City please." the bus driver says "this is for Coffee Town mate!" he heard him he reacted to it, but he just sat down on the wrong bus.
and its at that point in my life i worked out some people cant be fucking helped. i was aghast at the stupidity of it, to be told twice and to still fuck it up.
I think my father might be someone who cant be helped.
So im 25 now, my girlfriend asked me would you move in?
I said no, i would like to but i think it would cause problems for my mum, they would have to move at the very least and if they move dad will want to move to the isle of wight.
truth is i don't know what i want to fucking do...
i love her and i think i would like to move in with her, but iv said no now, and anything i say now will look like a response to her reaction of disappointment. right???
but also i cant help but think, is she asking me to move in as a result of here son leaving, as if to fill a void because if that was the case that wouldn't be right either, right?
I think in summary to much is happening right now and everything needs to calm down before any decisions are made right?
Not exactly a clear question, i know. more just rambling on, because i'm confused, and i don't know what to do. so any insight is welcomed.
Thanks for reading.