Hi - i am 38, 2 primary school aged children. Divorced 3 years. My childhood years were tough, parental neglect, mental health and addiction issues with my mother, my teenage and early 20's isolated and struggling. I got married at 27 and hoped this would be it. I'd be safe at last, I was a good wife, mother and would be loved. It didn'twork out. I realise now why. I had a 2 year relationship with someone seriously messed up which I feel guilty about as it hurt so many people. I have no family contact, I have a best friend but other than that no support. I feel so fatigued, dizzy, headachey all the time. I have a good job but it's hard going. I'm attractive but feel like I'll always be on my own. What do I do? It seems hopelessly relentless and I can't seem to tear myself out of it.