This is a realy long post. Been married for 3years and now i am miserable,i read a post about doing dh lundry and it made me laugh because i do all the lundry,ironing,cleaning cooking and everything inbetween and i have a demanding full time job,but he never appreciates it,he makes fun on me and says i am boring and u don't have a life,once walked out of the house at 10pm because i asked him to bring in the lundry while i was doing dishes,when i think of the things he has done to me i just get so bitter,for the first 8months of moving in with him he would not have sex with me,he has a password on all his phones/gadgets and deletes chats,he used to come home late without a good reason,later came to tell me that he was seeing (Airforce one) or chatting with his friends at work 4hrs after work closed, i called him out on the lie and he became violent and tried to choke me,my visa is dependent on him,he told me he will send me home to my poor family to die of hunger,calls me old and ugly looking,i am 30years and i try my best to look good. He didn't even give me a single flower for valentines day,if i get sick he becomes very angry and blames me for getting sick,and to make things worse i just found out im 5weeks pregnant,the thought of having a baby with him makes me physically ill,i think about the things he has done and i just sit and cry,he suddenly started becoming close with one of the models he photographs,when i asked him,he said i am not supporting his passion,that she supports him,so he will keep going to her,my passion is makeup but he gets into a rage and starts abusing me if i happen tp spend even 5extra minutes on my makeup,he calls me stingy but when i go to his wardrobe i see loads of things i got for him,but in my wardrobe there is nothing from him,i told him that once,just to point out that am not stingy and he said i should stop buying him things.he called his parents oneday yelling about not wanting this marriage anymore,because i had called him on one of the days he went for a photo shoot and asked why he hasn't called me all day,his mom was shocked she actually thougth i had an affair,i broke down and told her everything that happened and he was upset because i "washed his dirty linen in public" once when we travelled with family he got upset because i got myself a new handbag from the sales racks,he got himself things as well, and he threatened to slap me because i didnt offer to pay for groceries when we went shopping with his aunt and cousin,i just don't know what to do,Am i wrong not to want this baby?