Hi all, just thought that I would share this with you all to see if anyone else has been through this or if anyone is going through this.
I have previously been in a very emotionally abusive relationship where I was constantly told that I was not good enough, pointing out my flaws, manipulating every situation, causing arguments, not allowing me to go out unless he was there, making me feel like nothing and that his mum is everything, telling me what I could and couldn't wear and so on. Safe to say it was not the greatest of relationships. He was a complete narcissists Sociopath.
It has been over a two years now since we broke up and after having some time out being single, I am now currently in a new relationship and have been for a year where he is amazing and treats me so well. However, I have this constant fear that that something is going to go wrong and that he is going to turn into my horrible ex even though he shows no signs at all. I have also noticed recently that I have become very insecure about myself in the way I look and feel a little bit as though I am not good enough and not sure if this has happened because of how I was made to feel in my past.
I have recently be contemplating cosmetic surgery, I know it sounds crazy but I feel like having something done might make me feel confident like how I use to feel before my horrible relationship and less insecure. I have told my current boyfriend and he really doesnt want me to get any cosmetic surgery done as he says that 'he loves me just the way I am' (think he quoted Bridget Jones Diary there lol).
What do you guys think I should do and how I should over come this as I really hate the feeling that my ex has mentally damaged me.
There was a lot of messed up things that happened in the relationship and thinking of doing another post to share it all as I would hate for anyone to be going through what I went through and feel alone or trapped
xxx