Hi,
I hope people will be gentle as this is a bit of a strange post.
What's happened is I was raped I think about ten years ago. It was by my boyfriend at the time. What happened was I had my drink spiked on a night out.. I managed to get out of that situation and he got me home however my body was very floppy and I couldn't really move. On the night I begged him to not leave me I was so scared but he did as he was worried what people would think about him if he did I woke up in the morning and could walk but my body didn't feel great. Went over to his in the afternoon as I guess I didn't want to be alone. I was trying to nap and he just started to have sex with me.
I said no but he carrier on. It's always made me feel upset because although I appreciate it wasn't him who spiked my drink I was in such a bad way physically and emotionally the next day and I don't think he should have had sex with me at that time. I did say no but maybe not strongly as I was so worn down. I wish I never went there I think I was looking for comfort.
Sorry for such a long post it's just a relief to get it out xxx