So here goes 😩
I’ve been with my partner 11 years not what have all been a bed of roses. Me and my partner have split several times during these 11 years in which my oh has moved out etc. He has a bad coke problem and I don’t take drugs so could not tolerate his behaviour. During the relationship I have numerous times caught him txting other girls (some from his past) and he always says they’re just friends and even tho he knows it upsets me he’s done it over and over.. so when we split most recently I started seeing a guy I used to be with but decided it didn’t work and left it there.
I found out my ex had been in contact with his ex gf who I do not like and he had even been txting her friends trying to chase her, when I found out he went absolutely crazy that I knew and turned it all on me.. we now have both agreed to stay out of each other’s business. So the other night after a few drinks I met up with a guy I’ve known since I was a teenager (I’m not 30) and we ended up sleeping together. I’m absolutely mortified as I have never ever had a one night stand I’m not like that. But because I’ve been feeling lonely and insecure I went with it! Not a clever move I know. The problem I have is I’m so worried about it getting back to my other half as he is very unpredictable and makes me feel like absolute shit!!! The area we live in is quite small and everyone knows everyone. However this guy has said he won’t say anything ?? My other problem is I feel so awful and guilty about it.. like it’s eating me up and giving me major anxiety !!!!! I kinda feel like being honest but then I know that probably ain’t the greatest thing. My problem is I’m blind sighted by anxiety and anyone who knows me knows ima natural worrier..
Advice please