Been together 5years. 2dc together.
Sex life was great in the beginning. Had ds after being together about a year. After 2mc and then 2dc the sex life has got not as great. Currently in property that had rode nt problem before we moved in and they were In the kids bedroom, luckily found out before we put their beds up so 4 of us are currently in one room until we are sure no rodents. So you can imagine sex life is minimal ATM.
Recently he's been a bit touchy feely with me - this is unusual because usually its just straight sex no foreplay ect. I didn't mind obv. But on IG I've seen he's liked some pages and pics of scantily clad women, nude pics ect, but has quickly unliked them so I don't see I suppose because it tells me he's following them or liked, but on profile or pic it doesn't. These are not celebs or porn stars ect, its just random women some from Russia and Hungary too
I saw it once and ignored but it keeps happening.
Today he went to work so I snooped on his tablet, (we have blocked porn sites due to dc) howver ve seen youTube searches for 'lesbian sex' 'spanking' 'porn secrets' 'how to get a girl hot' 'nude cleaning' 'whooty' 'bum jiggle' 'twerking' 'sexy mama' 'trying on lingerie' ect. Scrolled down a little further and see a sight where nudes are leaked and he been looking at pics of women. More of the mobile vagina selfieas ect.
So now I know why he's touchy feely with me because what he seea. Every time he goes to smoke in bathroom he takes tablet, that's what he's doing, looking at his searches! Sometimes he's in there fir 40mins.
I know porn is normal, but every time he's not with me its like he looks at this. Its really making me feel insecure and self concious. After 2dc I'm not in the best shape but I am trying to lose weight to feel better and look better. Still the tablet with his searches seen to get more attention. He works a lot and it just seems when he's at home he's smoking in the bathroom. We literally spend 3hrs Max with each other watching soaps