Been with my husband 7 years. Before we got married I was very honest and we had really frank discussions about our hopes for our life and we both wanted two kids. However our first son is almost 18 months old and I've been trying to talk to him about the second child due to my age and family history meaning I'm not far of menopause. I'm in a point in my career that I either need to put it on hold or kick it up a notch. I come from a massive family, loads of siblings and cousins for me so it seems impossible to me for my son not to have siblings. I feel like there is someone missing in my life, this hole that needs filling. Don't get me wrong I know it will be hard but that's what we wanted.
Until last night, my husband admitted he didn't want anymore children and had been too scared to tell me because he doesn't want it to cause problems in our marriage.
I'm absolutely heartbroken. I feel so angry and hurt and betrayed. And I know all of that is totally unfair because he hasn't done this on purpose and it's not something you can make yourself do and I wouldn't want him to.
But how do I move on, how do I deal with all this huge pain and almost feeling of loss for this child I'm not going to have? The thought of going through and getting rid all the baby stuff we've kept in storage is killing me.