Name changed. I have been with dp for nearly 5 years have a 3 and a 1 year old. I was mad in love with him, we were perfect or I thought so. He has an old phone and I went through it. He has a naughty Instagram account with to watch videos and naughty pictures. His profile doesn't have to pic or anything just "appreciating all types of women" didn't find no conversations but he would have deleted them I would think. He deleted Instagram on that phone next day. He has a female friend that according to him is a family friend although I have never seen her in any family events. He has a pic of her in his contact info. I saw a message and a couple of calls but again he deletes things... I don't trust him.. I had a bad childhood and I have started councelling this month and it brought up lots of crap and I am going to the path of depression. He has no sympathy. I think he can't really understand emotions... Knowing his mother you know why... Anyway, at the moment I can't live as I am studying full time and kids are very small. I am at uni M-F 8-5 I will finish in 2 years. I started talking to a friend on WhatsApp and I am starting to have feelings for him. What do I do? I don't like staying with him just because I have nowhere to go and I need help with the kids while I finish my degree. Once I'm done it will be a very different story.