That feeling

[RealEyes]

Does anyone else ever just get an awful feeling something is wrong?

You aren't sure what it is or why but something is not right?

I'm saying this generically, as you know when something or someone is being different with you. But they won't say why or what but your gut is crying out there is?

@Musti I do agree with this.

I'm not normally like this, but I think the issue lies with me and he can't give me the reassurance I need.

Until I work on me, it's best to walk away.

OP - you oscillate from + to - full speed so quicky.
And you also mentioned that allyour exes treated you badly...

Maybe you were really so unlucky.
But it’s also possible that you are looking for signs and jump at shadows.

Leave if you are unhappy. But do try to work on yourself. What drives and triggers you. What you want, need, etc...

It maybe that your past is preventing you from being able to have normal healthy relationships

@MMmomDD you are right.

I just question everything and I need to stop but I don't know why I do this.

I'm pushing him away, as I've put my barriers up to stop him hurting me

Counselling is the best way...
If you can’t pay - try GP.
You’ll have to wait, but it’s worth it.

And you can also open up to him. Tell him how you feel and why.
What do you have to lose?

@MMmomDD I've told him a few times I have doubts and this is why etc. He's always reassuring at the time, lovely really.

but then he goes hot and cold which he knows creates doubt in my mind. It's like he's playing games and I don't like it.

He's starting to say things now as "what have I done now" or he gets annoyed with me if I don't reply back so he then leaves me on read for 24 hours.

It may be too late to save this one - once the bad dynamic starts...

I didn’t mean tell him about your suspicions.
More about your history and why it may make you more touchy and all. And that you know it might be pushing him away etc.

Maybe in your next relationship...

@MMmomDD I told him that too.

That's why I need to walk away, it's damaged already